As I was scrolling through Pinterest for inspiration for this week’s meals, I came across a prayer someone had pinned called the “I Don’t Know Prayer”. It goes like this: “You just go somewhere quiet and you sit at the feet of God and you say, ‘I don’t know. I don’t know where to go from here. I don’t know what is happening. I don’t know how to process this. I don’t know what to do with these emotions. I don’t know how to handle this situation’. And then with whatever little grain of faith you have, you say, ’but You know.’ And you leave it there. God most certainly hears your prayer. Declare Amen.”
Man, have I been there before! So, let’s talk about it!
When I was a young mother, life was pretty hectic and mundane at the same time. Everyday, we would get up, get dressed, get Logan dressed, feed him, pack his bag, get him to the car, take him to daycare, go to work, go back to get him, come home, cook dinner, get him a bath, read a book, cuddle, then I would shower, I MIGHT watch some TV but then I would go to bed. (For the record, Jon is a very involved dad and he would help wherever I needed him.) Even though the day is different, it’s the exact same. And you get…lost. Or at least, I did. I was lost in the middle of MY life.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE(D) my life. I love being a mom and wife. I love making my house a home. But how much time have I spent pouring laundry detergent in the washer? How much time have I spent asking Logan what he wants for dinner? It’s not washing or cooking, it’s the redundancy and cyclicality of it all. And then there is the time factor…
And the more I did, the more hidden I felt. I was unnoticed. I was unseen. I didn’t need a trophy. I didn’t need “atta girl” daily. But I was becoming more and more lost. I am sure Jon felt the same way. To this day, we talk about that time when life was hard. Everything from eating to talking was…hard. Why? We were lost.
You know who saw us? Who knew down to second how much time has been spent pouring that laundry detergent in the washer? Who saw every single thing I did and uttered, “Keep going”? My heavenly Father. How do I know this?
Hagar, who also felt unnoticed, unseen and hidden, He told her he saw her. (Genesis 16:6). He assured her He had a plan and this mundane work would last a season.
Ruth, who also was doing mundane work, picking up leftover grain for a season (Ruth 2:2) and He reminded her this would prepare her for a husband.
David was doing mundane work by shepherding sheep for a season (1 Samuel 16:19) and He reminded him how this prepared him to become king one day.
Peter and other disciples were doing mundane work by casting a fishing net in hopes of catching a plethora of fish (Matthew 4:19) and He reminded them how this would prepare the disciples to be fishers of men.
You see, the work you do doesn’t DEFINE you. I think we get caught up in that sometimes. What we do is for seasons. This mundane work you are doing creates character. There is beauty in mundane work. So what you are doing for this SEASON, lays groundwork for the future. Don’t get bogged down with “mundaneness”.
And for the record, God always sees you. You aren’t lost. He knows EXACTLY where you are at all times. He knows exactly where you have been, where you are today and where you are going! If you feel lost, remember that is just a feeling.
This week, as you are doing dishes or washing clothes and you are tired, it’s ok. It’s ok to feel tired and unnoticed. Feeling this way is just a reminder you need to pray. And your prayer can be the “I Don’t Know Prayer” and THAT’S ok too! Why? Because He’s got you. He sees you. He knows you’re tired and He has plans for you. Just know that what you are doing now is for just a very small season. That mundane work you’re doing is love. Imagine the love He shows you daily and what that entails on His part.
Love you all and see you Wednesday for the midweek message!
Jennifer
